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There are always torturing cries of woe

racing through my heart and mind in your absence.

There is always an unutterable amount of pain and sorrow

that lies within my heart.

There is always an inexpressible longing to see your face again,

to touch and squeeze and hug you.

There is always a deep and poignant emotional distress

that blankets a world you are no longer in.

There is always a strong desire to talk football with you

and this time I’d really pay attention.

There is always an overwhelming regret that continuously

eats away at my heart for all the missed opportunities

of your life that will never be.

There is always a sense of drowning in the turbulent waters

of grief as the realization that you’re not coming back

begins to take hold of my heart.

“And ya know what?”

There is this broken, shattered heart that can never be mended

until I see you again.

“And I must say” all this Jeff, because you are no longer here.

I love and miss you a million, billion, scmillion times

Love, Mom xo

Happy Birthday Jeffrey

Once upon a time on October 3, 1977,

a child was born and I knew he was mine.

So perfect in every way, you were to me.

“Not so,” said the doctor as he shook

his head. “He may not live, you see.”

Over the years and never a complaint,

many surgeries you did endure.

Missing you with such intensity...

If only, Jeff, they had found a cure.

Twenty-seven years of courage and strength,

what an awesome young man you became.

Our world has forever changed,

life without you can never be the same.

The enormity of your loss grips our hearts

with immense pain and sorrow.

As we struggle through each day,

we no longer look forward to any tomorrow.

When God threw that Hail Mary pass Jeff,

you were in the end zone.

I knew then that your final

play on earth was done.

Your touchdown catch into your eternal life is now complete

“And I must say,” may your birthday be one illustrious fete.

“And ya know what?”

Have a Happy and Glorious

Birthday in Heaven Jeff!