Grief

God, it's so hard to trust
When I've been hurt so bad,
My wound is raw and deep,
I feel crushed and sad.

I have a hollow in my chest
And nothing fits its shape
Except my children--and they're gone.
When I cry they stand agape.

Those who haven't been there
Expect the impossible from me.
They don't know I'm still hurting
From wounds they cannot see.

They want to keep me busy
To occupy my mind.
Oh, how I want to hold them,
But I've been left behind.

Grieving has no schedule,
No pattern or set pace.
Everyone's grief is different
But it's written on each face.

The smile covers the ache
That throbs within the chest.
We see through a veil of sadness,
From grief there is no rest.

Tears on my pillow, crying in dreams,
Become our familiar friend.
We're on a journey of healing,
May we hear "Well done" in the end.

by Elizabeth Dent, adapted

In Loving Memory
Ronald William Field, 7/15/67  ~ 4/15/69
James Brian Huston, 12/22/72 ~ 3/22/73
Rachel Michelle Smith, 5/21/69 ~ 10/25/03
Beloved children of Joyce Smith
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In Loving Memory
Matthew Robert Gonzalez
Beloved only child of
Robert and Janny Gonzalez
November 9, 1993 ~ February 11, 2004

Big Brother to Ethan Andrew,
December 11, 2004
November 9, 2004

                  Dear Matthew,
               We were not prepared to say goodbye--we weren't prepared to let you go.  The Lord needed someone as pure and joyful as you were; so he chose you, just as he chose us to be your parents.
Today, November 9, 2004, you would have been 11 years old.  Happy Birthday to you...  Happy Birthday to you...  We dearly miss you each and every day of our lives.
Our little sunshine you are no longer with us, but your spirit touches our hearts and it eases the longing we have to touch you.  There is not one single day that goes by that a tear is not shed for you because we miss you so much.  Our greatest hope is that one day, our Lord will grant us the honor to see you again.
We know you are in heaven, because that's where Little Angels go to be with God as he needs you.  We miss you, "papa lindo" and we will always love you.

Happy Birthday Little Pookie!
Happy Birthday my love.

Love, Mommy and Daddy